*Spoiler Alert* This one is sappy!

So I have been really emotional since my illness...and no time shows you who really cares and who really matters than your time of need. And I feel like this blog is long overdo. I need to dedicate this to 4 women that I love more than life itself. These people, so dear to my heart, have been there through all the rough times, all the happy times, and everything in between. They are the ones that I can count on when I need a shoulder to cry on. They are the ones that stop dead in their tracks and come to my aide when I need a helping hand. They are the ones that love me when I am the biggest bitch in the world, or the sweetest person they've ever met. They were the ones taking off of work and spending hours and hours with me in the hospital. They were the ones at my bedside holding my hand. They have been the ones that have listened to my worry, panic, and tears and assured me that I would make it through these last 2 months. They are the ones that didn't turn their back on me and would NEVER turn their back on me. They are the people that do not judge me. They are the women that know everything about me...and love me anyways. They are the ones that I would do ANYTHING for....take a bullet for.....commit murder for......sit in jail for. They are my mother, my sister, my grandmother, and my Jennifer. It's sad that not everyone can have such a wonderful, caring, supportive mother like mine, or a loving, strong, loyal sister like mine, its too bad that some people don't know the unconditional, whole hearted love that a grandmother can give...and its a shame that not everyone has the good fotrune that I've had to have found the good hearted best friend that I've found. A friend like that comes once in a lifetime. I will treasure these relationships for the rest of my life. I am so lucky to have 4 such amazing women to look up to and admire. Thank you for being my rocks. I don't take you for granted and I want you all to know just how much you mean to me. The world.

Holy shizzzzle my nizzzzle!!!

Riiiiiiiight. Well, the fat picture was taken 8 days before my surgery. Yikes!! And the skinny picture (as I like to call them lol) was taken 2 months ago and guess what!! I've lost 30 more pounds since then! BIATCH!!

Too much fun for one person...lol

Well, I have been pretty busy lately and haven't really updated on ME. So here goes....I'm still "sick" with these nerve problems but they are getting better. My Lumbar Puncture didn't completely rule out MS...but my Dr. said there is a slim chance that I have it. I am able to lift my foot a little bit and I can move my last 2 toes...so thats really good. I still have to use my brace and it SUCKS! They have me on anti-depressants for the nerve pain (NOT because I am crazy or because I can't be happy with my life without them lol) and its the first prescription that has actually helped the pain but they give me nightmares. Ugh....I hate having bad dreams. But my baby comforts me in the middle of the night after my night terrors. : ) I don't know how I could have gotten through this without him. He has been so amazing. Thanks babe I loooooooove you! So anyways, I guess I should thank my physical therapist too. lol. I think my twice a week therapy is helping. And I'm starting to look pretty bangin in a bathing suit. lol. No loose skin! Oh and btw....I am officially under the 200 pound mark! YAHOOO! I've lost 115 pounds. And its pretty sexual.

So we haven't been doing much lately since its so hard for me to get around but last night we went out to Iowa Park for my Randi's bday party. Happy Birthday TODAY Randi! I love you! We had some good food! Speaking of birthdays, mine was last week! I got some awesome gifts! I cancelled my party at the last minute because I wasn't feeling so good but we celebrated all week long so its ok. lol.

My bestie is getting pretty big! And we find out what Jenn is having on June 2nd! BOY BOY BOY! And you all better come to her baby shower (well, not all of you lol) because I am hosting it and its going to be amazing! We have the venue rented already but we can't really do much else until we find out the sex....so I can't wait!!! And she is the cutest little pregnant girl in the world!

Besides that, its just been ALL about the wedding of the century. lol. I don't understand how two such non-rich people can somehow afford such an expensive wedding, but somehow, they sure are. lol. Markie has champaign taste just like her big sister.....I'm seriously about to call Bridezillas! Oh well, its her special day so I understand her wanting it to be perfect. All the money and hooplah over a legal agreement. lol. Or sometimes not-so-legal. Right, Miss California??

Well, I think that my afternoon guests (Daniel and Tito) are gone, so I am gonna go hop in the bath and then watch a movie with my old man. TTYL! Hugs!

The most beautiful bride...

Well, as most of you know, my little sister is now a bride-to-be. Blair proposed to Markie on Mothers Day, in front of our family. It was very sweet. He even thought to ask my dad for her hand. What a little gentleman. Well, we don't play around....so we had an appt at David's Bridal last night and guess what!!! My sister got her dream dress! She looked to gorgeous. Well, congratulations Markie and Blair. I know this is going to be a huge wedding. I can't wait! Oh and of course, I am the MOH!

Tony's visit!

I DID IT!!!

So I weighed last night and GUESS WHAT!! I have lost a whole person! I weigh 202 which means that I have lost 107 pounds! Isn't that amazing?? Hopefully by next week I will be in the 100's!